Wednesday, May 25, 2005

hOUse oF waX..

hOUse of waX is vERy nICce... except For thE paRis hilton parT... thE Michael ChaD mUrRAy was cOMplEtely a HUnk maN... nICe... hEex.. catCh thAt show at lIdo... NC 16... thE pEopLE at the enTranCE diDnt chEck.. so i jSUt breEzely weNT thRu it... pHEw~... dEn.. we have thE usuaL stuFf... pOpcorns.. cOKe... bUt.. onE more dRInk.. i thInk.. iT tasTE nICe... -> CAramel cappacino.. nICee... loVE the creaM.. evEn thOUGh i haTE cream veRY mUch.. buT.. wiTh the caramEl.. it blEnd uNTIl... yUm.... dEn cOZ.. the show starT at 7pm... dEn the timE was only 4:00pm.. .caN u imAgine thAt? wE oSo very laZy to waLK thRU the toWn agaiN and agAin... sO we sneaKed to CleMEnti to eat thE pOrriDge... osO.. taSte very aWesoMEe.... [so soRry.. i m realLY a foOd freaK...] hEex... reaCh hoME by 10 pM.. buT.. .diDnt have mY diNnEr.... all stoREs are cLOsed... u noE wat.. iF i doN have to reaCh home by 10pm... i woUld heaD foR suPper.... hMm.. anD in thE tRain.. wE were woNDeriNG whetHEr yEllOw shIRt lOok goOd on hUmans oR not.. .sO... in thE shaw toWer... wHen we wenT gOIng dOwn the escalATor.. we saw somEone weariNG a yEllow shiRt.. and i thINk is nICee... dEn after that... we realiZed that it is daphNE.. the siNGapore idOl finaliSt... aCtually.. .i m nOT sure.. cOZ.. i cant seE far.. so .. i walKed faSter.. heex.. i nOE thAT i lOoked so stuPid.. hEex.. dEN .. it is hEr.. hEex... nEver expecT that.. hEex.. thE dAy waS nICe.. nICe.. enjoyEd myseLF coMpleTely.... coOolll~~~
tOxIc sUn reminisced on 7:02 PM

Saturday, May 21, 2005

niCee dAyy..

tOday.. overaLl.. was quITe greaTt.. hMm.. excEPt that i thiNk.. we all walked too mUch.. hEex.. wenT to beaCh.. hOPe to gEt somE sUnn... buT.. it tuRn out.. the cLOuDs are gEtting darKEr... watEr dROplets fallINg from sky ... laNDing on thE faCE with a HUge EFfect.. veRY arGh~!.. gRr... no suN at all... we waiTed fOr likE hOURs ... nVm... tHen.. we dEcidEd to retired to tOwn. .so gO and seaRch foR toilets to bath... in thE female toIlEt.. pPl quEning up uNTil it was visiBLe at the oUTsidE of the toileT... can imagiNE how cRowdEd it was??? nVm.. .dEn we decIDed to walk on. .seE if there is any mORe toiLEts.. in thE end.. we walked fRom siloso beaCH to pelawaN... so lOng.. dEn da baG so heaVy... but .. thEre thE tOilet.. vERy few Ppl.. phEw~.. dEn oK already.. dEn go toWn.. gO oLd chAng kEe bUy foOd.. hUNgry.. i dON noe wat to oRder... sO i oRder a fiSh fillet... niCee... thE weatHEr.. raiNing... noT light... pRetty heavY.. nVm.... buTt... whEN u are eatiNG some hoT thing dURing coLd weatHEr... it is kINda smoothiNg... anD nice... dEN on thE way to faR eeast.. i saW hErman.. thEY all.. i liKE every weEk saw thEm in toWn... hEex.. dEn in far east. .we weNT up and doWn.. i m searCHing for that oPps shOP.. cannOt find.. dEN i boughT a paIR of shoes... dEn.. i saw a ShiRt... very nICe... racErback... NICee.. very teMpting... buT i dIDnt bUY... nVm.. i gO thEre again oN mOnday .. mAyBee... dEn i saAW peanUtt... saW oF mEet halFway... dEN acTually.. we plaN to watCH the house oF waX .. buT.. lido thEre.. the 7 pm 1.. all fUlly bOoked.. arGh.. nVm.. i have to bE baCk home at 10pm.. so canT manage to caTch thE next shoW... gRrrr... DEn we walk hEre walk tHEre.. dEn sAw hErman thEy all agaiN.. hEex. .at cinelEiSure... dEn afTer tHAt.. we dEcided to go cLEmenti... to seEe have the shoW or noT... again.. 9.30 dEn the show staRts... dEn i calL baCK home see iF i can have a eXtention of tiME.. buT i GoT a traShing inStead.. fiNe... dEn we dRop bY maC to have oUR diNNer... hEex.. vEyr fuNny... verY gentlemEnt... noT badd... dEn weNT hoMee... very daRk.. sCAry.. hEex.. gOOnite.. kINda tiRed... [bTw.. i managE to reaCH hoME by 10pm.. lUckily.. pHEw~]
tOxIc sUn reminisced on 11:46 PM

Friday, May 20, 2005

mAy... waT a MonTh!

Ever siNce the start oF may.. maRks the start of we all sloGging like hell.. cauSe thAt is the mId year exams perIOd.. thE miDdle of may... tErRoR dayS... cauSe it is thE day we know oUR resuLTs... the enD of maY... chINese 'O' levEl exAms... thIS moNth.. reAlly.. .suPEr tiRed... veRY slEepy tOo... todAy... laSt day of the weekdays... fINally... can resT... bUTt.. oso canNOt.. tML have thaAT stuPId chiNese lEsson fROm 9pm... dIstrupTs my bElovEd slEepiNG hOUrs.... gRrr.... siCkenINg.. go thEre are oSo oF no uSe... aNyway. .tHe prObality oF me oVErsleeping is 11/15.. lEts hOpe thAt i wakE up.. tRy... today.. i phOTocOpy chRIstinE 's nOTes.. chINese 1.. (oR else i doN noe what to stuDy foR my chINEse o OR moCk examS) suPPer nEat.. hEr haNDwriTting.... all tHE woRds.. liKE coMpUter type oUt 1... i thInk foR me to maSter hEr haNDwriting.. muSt takE at leasT 10 decaDes.. oR foRever... hEex.. thX cHRistinE fOR leNding mE yoUR nOTess.... thAnksSs... anywaYy.. wHY mUst we stUDy chINese?? it iS a slEepy suBject.. anD moreEVer bOriNgg~.. duRing the jUNe holidays.. alSo have chInese oRal examS... i very sCAre i pRonunCe the woRd wroNGly... i vERy sCAre i doN noe how to say thE woRd... i thInk.. very cErtain thAt i wouLD sure spUrt of some enGLish.. i thInk.. bY then.. i am deaD... hEex.. i tHInk i wiLL bE goINg town tmL.. thInk onI.. most liKEly wiLL bE... hEex.. gTg.. watCH tElEvision pRagRAmme.. toDAY.. lAst episoDe.... chIlll oUtt~!
tOxIc sUn reminisced on 5:57 PM

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

hOWw? loSt...

tELL you what- my bRo 's attitudE just was so yuCks.. whEn he is angRy.. hE aCt like one biG time benG... buT sometimes, he iS oosO quiTe oKae.. hMM.. ovErall.. in conclusIOn.. noT so favourable to gET angRy... woRsen uR atTitUDe.. oNLy makEs peOple feel moRE irritated.. BUt.. iT is eMOtions rITe? it is beyoND the reaCh of us... JUst let it be..

tEll you anothEr thingy- oUR schoOl is soMEtimes very mean. DOn nOE what the hell are they thinking... they dON allOw teaCHers to return oUR examination papErs til weDnusday... tHEy are makIng us, sTudents.. thE anxiety goIng up... explOding soOn... cRazy man... LuckilY .. tML is weDnusday.. oR else .. i wilL go nUTs i think.. i thiNk i dID very baDly for my examinations cOZ i slAck a loT dURing tht pErioD of time... MY arT.. i thInk. .gONe case... the whOle piCture.. liKE.. no meaning... thE whEels and geaRs.. dON carve thAt kINda of impact... oVerall-baDd.. very baDd... my chINese.. hEex.. osO goNe case.. .i thiNk more goNE dEN my art.. dIDnt stUDy for tht.. laZy.. oSO no interest.. lOok at thE characTers.. liKE askIng u to gO to bEd... liKE they aRe singing a lullaby... CHinEse->arGh! whaT a sUBjeCt... fOR mathematiCs.. i heaRd from thEm sayinG that onLy 6 pasSes foR tht suBjeCt... omG... makEs me eVen more scaRe.. [relAxx... cHIll out man!] oK.. gOT baCk ouR phyisCs papEr today.. lUCkily.. i paSs.. canT believe i paSs.. PheWw~... anD ONe mORe reasOn why OUR sCHool is mean.. thEY stil say thAT the overall mArks is not fiNalise.. moderation wOUld be done iF we are scoring well... cRazy Ppl... mY goD! i wonDer what aRe they thiNKing... [vEry slEeppy]... nOWadays.. i canT find a reasON whY mY eyes alwaYs lOok soRe whEnever in the mORning.. it iS like.. becoME a roUtine... sincE the Exam weEk startEd.. i 've bEen havING these bllOOdshot eyes... hATe it ... eVEn whEn i wENt out in thE earLy aFtErnoon... pPl lOok at mE like i m somE kiNda of freaK... gRr... i stiL cant figuRe out whY my eyEs alwayS apPEar reD... argH... nVm.. mayBE i wil l vISit a doCtoR tML or the day afTEr.. hEex.. anD one mORE thingy.. MY eyEs sight. dEterioRating... u nOE.. whEnever when testing thE eyes.. thEre wil bE a boaRd.. fIll wiTh letTErs .. ranGing froM bIG to smAll... i oNLy can seE the bIggest leTter-can you imagine how baD my eye sight is? hAve to fIX a paiR of glAsSes sOon.... [* alAddIn thE lamP... siGnifies mE... *loNely bY akOn.. sIGnifies parT of My eMotiOn...] hEex.. whaTevEr ..! lEt go!..
tOxIc sUn reminisced on 8:18 PM

Saturday, May 14, 2005

wRong decisIons thRough oUT my lIfe.. whY?

wHy? why am i always makIng wrong decision through oUT my life? and always regret it aFter i realiZes what i dID? why? i hAte this kInda of feeling... i wanNA feEl peace.. U nOE.. peaCe? no woRries? nO nEed to thInk aboUt what PeoPle is sayiNG behiNd me? i waNNa feel bliss.. iZzit poSsibLe...? it was haRd.. diFficult.. imposSible to achieVE... just soo... faR to reach oUt for... i neEed somebodDy to talk to.. i wanNA go to thE beach.. anD relAx... i kNow wHo to seEk out to.. bUTt.. i m just so afraiD this is aNother wroNG decison.. whYy m i alwaySs afraiD? when M i goINg to step out oF this darK hole? i nEedDd to gOo to the beaCH anD taLk OR shout or whateVEr.. as lONg as someoNE listens to it.. oR else..i m liKE sufFocated.. diEing.. baCkening awaY.. gOd.. whY is thIS so? iS this the cOrrect one? m i wrONg again? stOP playing with me!? won't u? lEt me be right foR once? won't u? guIde me aloNg.. can't u?

todaY.. was actuAlly.. quiTe a siCkening day.. i wanteD to buy the flesh iMp shiRt.. -shoRt of funds- .. siCkening feeling.. i wEnt to zP hOUse.. i was so envY tht shE and her mom waS so clOSe.. how i wiSh my mom anD i was likE tht.. i noE it was impOssible.. forget it~... anywaY.. we haD fuN.. reAlly... i asKed her helP me to customizE my shOe.. shE is always fUll of creatIvity.. alwaYs.. not baD.. this is wat siNGapoRe nEeds the mOSt.. dEn we weNt to towN... hEex.. i m a liTtle trOUblesome..maybE very trOUblesomE... hEex.. cant hElp it though.. i finAlly foUNd a shiRt tht sUIt my panTs... .. aT faR east.. bUTt.. thEre is nO siZe avaiLable.. arGh!.. onLy L left... i kEpt thiNkINg.. dEN i just decided to buY.. nVm... i liKE it .. thE colOur.. ... dEn my dAd called.. anD ask if i wouLd be joinINg them.. i say dO u want mE to join ya? dEn he say.. foRget it... i felt sOo gUIlty u noE... the tonE of his voice.. i couLd picture his impREssion and eyEs in my minD.. so afTer all the shOppings.. i hOp over to joIN them.. i m jUSt soo hapPY to seE them.. tht i gaVE them a huG.. anD my lil bRO... altHough sometimEs.. he really pISs me oFf.. but.. he is.. hmM. i don noe hoW to descriBle him.. pERhaps.. i really miSs them.. i makE a proMise to myself tht eVEryweEkends.. i wouLd aCcompany thEm... buT howevEr... thE fOollowing events just swept me over.. liKE a tidal waves... firstLY.. my mom dONt trust mE.. nVm.. i stILl can suRvive.. nExt.. i toLd my daD and mOm tht i hOPed to join them for breakfirst tmL... i waSs just soo excited.. we could all bE like what we aRe in the paSt... dEn after tht.. tuItion teacher smSes me tht thEre will be a tuiTion tml at 10.. dEn i was liKe.. goSh.. how m i goING to aCcompany thEm foR breakfirst... dEn i toLd my daD.. hMm.. i have tuition tmL.. wat tiME will u all be leaviNG for breakfirst.. waAt about afTer breakfirst.. u dRop me off tuitioN>? shOCk come after thT was thT my fathEr say..'. I dON like uR way of planning / organiZing things.. you always have a motive... iF u want us to drOP u off tuition.. just say so.. dON't say u want to have breakfirst with us.. ' .. aftEr he saiD tht.. i was cOMpletely.. farEd up.. i was lIKe.. 'cOMe MOn.. i diDnt noe i have tuition the next day Ok? i thought it was in the afternnoon.. i just wannA be liKE in the past.. whEre we all just have some.. whAtever... tuitION? i can always go thEre my self.. transport was no prOBlem.. i cant believe u thiNk tht way..' dEn.. slowly.. i cried... my bRo was liKE.. comforting me.. thanKs.. i really nEed tht.. it was just simpLy so huRting.. foRget it.. i don wanNA have any thiNg more to do wiTh them.. in case i was accuse oF some uNknown mOTive i was harbOUring ... i m tiREd to caRry on these kINnda of liFe.. i miSsed to gO to a friend's birthday party to makE my parenT happy a liittle.. yEt.. they dO this to me.. i canT take it.. next tiMe.. i wanNA be wiF my friends.. i will just go aheaD.. i doN wanna care anymORe.. and they kEpt on saying ... i m just so tiRed.. i waNna retire at the beach.. just lie down at the hot sanD.. faCIng the hot sun.. feeling the cool water underneath... buRsting out m y pRoblems to the pERson who is listening.. i nEed tht.. i nEed to chill out.. oR else i really wouLd go maD... prObably next wEek.. canT stanD it anyMOre... i nEed tht.. lEt me chill out.. let me free... lEt me be myself... pleaSe... pleasEe...let me do the things i want...
tOxIc sUn reminisced on 11:43 PM